Thanks Sherlyn for the post. Really got better le. Maybe just left abit of missing here and there lo.Well, but i will survive.=)
Here's some update on my current life:
Went orchard yesterday with my lovable sistas. Roy is still as vulgar as usual. He started to use the F word now. *Shake head. He looks cute though now.bald.Haha.Belle and me got so thrilled as we keep playing with his new haircut.Haha. Took neoprints too. Shall post them up later cos i need to figure out how to first. Roy appear to be unhappy in every shots cos he was convinced that he looked bad w/o hair. Haha. But seriously, not that bad la. =P So Roy,dun be too upset, k?
Watched one gruesome movie that till now, the scene of the intestines,lungs and heart keep flashing across my brain now and then. Yucks. Bloody scenes. Ladies and gentlemen,please for your own sake,dun watch NIGHTMARE DETECTIVE. It's real boring and that i dun understand the show at all.None of us do actually. We were busy sms-ing half way tru the show.
Took prints again after the movie ended. Roy went for his Mahjong session and ps me and belle.sob. But its ok cos i had fun shopping with belle. Bought my first ever dress that belle and the shopkeeper convinced me to. Not sure when i can ever wear it.But thanks to the both of them, i will have to think of suitable occassions to wear.Hmm..sounds funny rite? That a girl doesnt own a single piece of dress. Haha.Just not used to wearing so demure like.Nevertheless, will still try to wear cos i made a pact with my colleague,Kelly.
Met my online frien, Zenon in Wisma. He joined us for dinner at MOS burger. This is my first time actually seeing someone i talked to online in real life. Well, no doubt it is interesting and exciting. Cos photos and real person may differ since nowadays it's quite common for such things to happen. Haha. But luckily, Zenon is nice. Similiar to how he looks like on photo. He is 22 this year and shares the same horoscope as me.
At first,quite awkward but Belle somehow managed to kick up a conversation with him and we started talking. Well, Zenon is cute la. I have to admit. Got the boyish look. =P Still in army.Lives in the East. Even Belle say he not bad. He accompanied the two road idiots to the bus stop and waited till we all got onto bus then he left.
Real tired after the whole shopping trip. Another of my friend called me as i dragged my feet home. Guess he was bored in army ba. Had a long bath cos i almost dozed off as i was showering. Later,Koksiang called and we chatted for a while until Zenon's call came. Felt bad that i had to end my conversation with Koksiang. But thanks goodness, Koksiang was understanding abt it. But unfortunately, Zenon called with e intention of making me sing. Lol. Of course, i did not. So pai seh. Got two calls frm different ppl a day to hear me sing.Haha. Both of them also shy shy de. But one is slightly caring than another. More understanding and sensitive too. Chatted with Zenon till 12 plus. too sleepy to talk sensibly.Haha.
Slp for 6 hrs plus only and right now, i am in the office with a heavy head and feeling sleepy.Received sms from Zenon before he book in again in the morning. Also another form Belle.Rather worried abt Belle. Hope she will be ok.
Belle,stay strong k? If need anything can come approach me for help de. Dun dwell on it anymore. Guys are afterall the same. Learn to let go k?
All right. Shall not divulge too much here least anything bad happens. Gotta end here. Till i manage to upload the shots successfully.
***Karin***
I dedicate this post in rememberance of my beloved grandma.
When i was a baby, you took care of me when my mummy was at work.
When i was feverish, you made me well with your traditional treatment of the dough.
I hated the smell of the dough whenever you rub it on my back
But now how i wish for just another rub on my back by you.
When i visited you on Sunday, you would always call out for me before i reached the doors
You will always then hurry me to eat more meat and if the food was nice.
I hated the fatty meat you cooked but i love the hotdogs and nuggets especially.
The soup was tasteless as you have to cook a big pot to fill 30 over stomach
I loathed it but now i would pay millions to have another sip.
Remember the last Thailand trip we went?
You were tired from the shopping and visiting of tourist spots.
We wanted you to rest in the hotel and the cafes
But you insisted to walk the distance with us and especially love to buy clothes for the youngs
You got nothing for youself yet you still love to shop
We were all looking forward to the end year China trip this year
Though it will be your 2nd time there, you still insisted on going and being with us
On the first trip there two years ago, you were happily bargaining with the locals
Aunt even got you a pair of sports shoes that you gladly wore instead of your clogs
You left.
When i was dozing off in the office,the call came
I did not know what to do but to hurry back
I saw you lying motionlessly on the bed of yours
I thought you were asleep but no matter how loud i called you
You kept quiet
I touched your face
I feel the warmth draining from your face and hands
Tears welled but i did not know what to do but keeping shouting for you silently
You look so sound asleep wearing your favourite blue top and the familiar black pants
Your saliva kept flowing out as our tears fell
Are you responding to us?
Have you heard us?
Come back to us
Tell me that you are only taking a nap
Tell me that all these aren't true
Tell me that you will be back
You left hints but we were too foolish
You laughed saying that you are not sure if you can wait for the year end China trip
We thought you were just making a casual remark
You told the youngs to buy as much titbits as they can and you will pay for it
And told them to finish those titbits slowly as there may not be any in the future.
You hinted but we did not realise
I had not been going to visit you on Sundays
With tuition packing my schedule and laziness
Now, how is Sundays going to be without the promise of seeing you at the doors?
Ah ma, i am sorry that i am no fillial a granddaughter
I did not visit you frequently enough
I did not accompany you enough
There's so much more i could have done
How am i going to survive ever Sundays without missing you
How can i asking " Ah ma, have you eaten?" every time i step into your house
How can i resist myself from looking around for you every time i go over to your house
You left behind 35 of us.
Your mum, your son, daughters,grandchildren and so many other more..
All of us are bleeding inside and tears accompany us as we think of you
Sundays lost its purpose.
Last Sunday was the first time i see my daddy cry
He yelled out for Ah ma when the coffin was raised and shifted into the vehicle
That is the only time i saw him tear and i believe it is definitely the first and last time
Ah ma, forgive me for not being there in your last hours
Forgive me that i did not eat the fatty meat that you always cooked
Forgive me for not being there every Sunday
Forgive me for all the disrespect i shown when i was small
Ah ma, wherever you are now
Please be ok. Please come back to us in our dreams and tell us that you are fine
Hear me, ah ma
Bless the family. Bless the trail of tears that were shed for you..
We love you and miss you.
Ah ma.
***Karin***
"Tears fall from the eyes like rain falls from the skies.People have said that since a long time ago.Just as the blue sky eventually emerges from behind the clouds,your tears will dry"
( Taken from Kelly's blog )
Super long sia this blog has a new post. So here am i trying to keep this poor blog alive.
Here are some updates in my life:
Got a new job at Recruit Legal. Basically a recruiting agency doing specialisation in the recruitment of legal staff. Interviews with Corporate Secretaries,Paralegals, lawyers,legal secretary and etc. Mon to Fri 8.30 to 5.30
Nice job. Starting to love it. I just call law firms or service provider firms and asked if they require our helpin recruiting legal staffs for them. When they give the green light, then off i go to find suitable candidtes in the database to match their critieria.Of course, i do earn commission when candidates that i sent managed to land the job. So far so good. I am week two into this job now.
Got a new student. Primary one kid that is super smart and maybe too smart for his own good. Imagine as i go tru oral discussion with him and he asked " Why are all of the ppl inside so old? They all got white hair!" (apparently the publisher chose to scrimp on black ink and did not color the hair of the characters drawn) There i was, speechless. But overall, he is still manageable. Monday and Thursdays are allocated to him.
My sis's grades are super bad now that i have to tutor her as well. Haiz. Wednesdays and Fridays are gone.
Saturday and Sundays (especially) are hectic days for me as i ought to tutor my sec 4 cousin and another pri 6 student. Trying my best to schedule my weekends so that i can have more breather.
In short, my life is packed and leaving only a few hrs here and there for me to look in the sky and daze. Probably its good this way. At least need not bother much abt other stuffs that weighs on my brain here and there.
Managed to catch up abit on reality when i met Roy and Belle for K box on Sat and after that Sushi buffet. Also, we caught a movie - Meet the Robinsons. Nice show. But i was in a rush to meet Eddy to go for the class outing that i missed the ending part of the movie. Thanks Belle and Roy for the fun i had on Sat.simply love the K box times we had. Roy's deep voice will be missed when he goes NS.Lol.
Class outing was okay. Caught up abit with Nianci with her life and olso some of my classmates' life. Bad Eddy. Hope he stops smoking soon. On my way home, smth bad happened and was having the urge to cry. But thanks to Jerome. I feel so much better after pouring out my grief.Friendships are fragile. Once broken, hard to mend regardless of the years. Thats wad i learnt.
Sunday. After ending tuition at 7.45 pm. Met koksiang for dinner. I got the urge to eat fries. Suprisingly instead of Mac, he treated me Swensens. Yummy fries. Had fun chatting with him. UFOs and Aliens. He keep suan-ing of my height. sob. I learnt from him that eating noodles dun make one taller. All right, that explains my height now. If only, i known this earlier.Probably, i would have been taller.Haha.Wanted to go Popular to get my pri 1 student Pokemon sticker but too late. It was closed. -_- Anybody got an idea where else can i get Pokemon stickers??
Koksiang was nice to chat with, despite the suan-ing. Lol. He was nice enuff to accompany me on my way home. Share abit of my "colourful" life with him. I am saving from now on to return his treat once he comes out frm army. (chu-bing). Lol.
Overall, it was a fulfilling long break i have this time round. But here's to say sorry to my lovely daddy that i cant join you and Sya for the Man U matches as i had plans by the time you guys invited me over. So sorry. But i will definitely shelf time to join u two asap for a Man U match. =)
***Karin***