i really dunno wad's got into mi these days. I feel rather suffocated.This post may seem a little haughty to some. But i am not gonna care - I just wanna write wadeva that comes into my mind these days that i am having difficulty suppressing.

I just dun get it. Though in my earlier post, i said that i yearn for love to show up soon in my life.But not to the extent of being desperate. But now.. i am real frustated with my personal life. Let me put this clear. I want love. Yes, i do. BUT i dun wan it from those that i have absolutely no interest in! I am not gonna mention the person whom is involved here. He may have access to my blog. But i dun care.

Here i am suffering. I just simply dun understand. I already made my stand crystal clear that i have totally NO interest in him and that it is simply impossible between mi and him but why is he still troubling mi with his confession for the number dunno wad time. I already gave him the coldest treatment that i have ever gave to a guy and that i had quarrelled with him over it. Vulgarities from him i have received. But i dun bother. I just want him to stop and get himself out of this mess. If my signals are still not clear, i dunno wad else i can do le. I really wan to treat as though nth is wrong between him and i,and to pyscho myself to think that we can still be friends after his confessions to me. BUT i just cant.

Why doesnt he learn his lesson? He doesnt noe that he is adding sorrow to me time and time again. I have NEVER in my enitre life, met this kinda of pestering guy before. Those that i rejected, are now friends with mi. I really appreciate their understanding.why cant he also be like them. Love cant be forced. No matter how many times u confess to me, the bottomline is still the same. It is not possible. Past, present and future.GET IT INTO UR THICK SKULL.

Do i really have to hate him to the core, dun sms him, dun talk to him, sned him hate mails and stuffs to hurt him and myself to get things straight across to him once more? I am really sick and tired of all these. I dun wan to be the bad guy here again. Isn't facing rejection twice enuff for an egolistic guy?? When will he learn to stop imposing on others??!!

I am already mentally drained worrying abt my results and he is not even helping mi with unloading my burden. I feel worse with the confession.If this is wad he wants out of mi, to make mi real ill of him, it may be working after all. Time. I really hope and pray hard that time will soon wash wadeva of mi in his brains. Loss of memory probably is the best way out for two souls which are badly wounded now.

***Karin***